I just set a date to get weight loss surgery.
February 6th is the big day. I realize “big day” makes it sound like I’m getting married. In reality it’s more like a divorce from my other half. No, not my wonderful husband who I adore, but the other half of my body. That’s right, I’m admitting for the world to hear, I weigh as much as 2 whole people. And that’s humiliating. But I’m doing something about it. I’m getting Weight loss surgery.
Now, it’s not like they’re going to cut off half of my body. I still have to eat right and exercise for the rest of my life. And it’s not liposuction where they suck out your fat. I still have to burn it off myself. The only difference is what/how much I can eat after the surgery.
This is a HUGE step for me and I am so so so so so so excited! But right off the bat I want to clear up a couple of things.
#1 Yes, it’s a surgery.
Yes I will be under anesthesia and there will be a recovery period. But it’s done here in the US, covered by my insurance, and with a surgeon who has done thousands of these. He’s reputable and his success rate (patients who lose the weight as keep it off) is phenomenal.
#2 It’s not the Lap Band.
It’s not anything where there is a large likelihood of complications down the road. If you’ve heard horror stories about your brother-in-law’s cousin’s nephew who had surgery and was in and out of the hospital afterward, chances are he had the Lap Band or something.
#3 I’ve been well-prepared for this.
I’ve been thinking about it for years and I’ve taken a 12 week course through my insurance TWICE. I have been and will continue to be monitored by the surgeon, a Psychiatrist, and a Preventative medicine doctor.
#4 Yes, I’ve tried eating less and moving more.
Yes, I’ve tried Atkins. Yes, I’ve tried weight watchers. Yes, I’ve tried running and calorie counting and aps and juice diets and appetite suppressants and eliminating sugar, soda, or whatever else. And I’ve gone to Overeater’s Anonymous. I’ve done the Yo-Yo so much that I’ve lost and regained 100’s of pounds over the past decade.
But I want to make a lifestyle change forever.
I know now that I can’t do it on my own. And it’s OK to admit that. Sometimes you need to hit rock bottom and admit defeat before you can ask for help to get back up.
I’m tired of not being able to do the activities I love to do. I’m tired of getting winded and my knees hurting when going up stairs. And I’m just tired.
It’s not hard for me to write all this down, but sure is going to be hard for me to share it with the world.
But I really want to put my experience out there because for a long time I’ve been craving any kind of information I can get about major weight loss, weight loss surgery, what it’s like before and after, what people’s experiences are and what their success is like. I went to a support group for patients of my surgeon and it was a huge group of people. About half were pre-surgery like me and obese. The other half were post-surgery and some looked like they were just a normal weight, and many looked like the types that had been naturally skinny their entire lives. They looked and felt fantastic and that was so encouraging.
It’s embarrassing for me to admit some of this stuff and to put it out there for total strangers (and scariest of all, people I actually know) to see. But I wanted so badly to see numbers, photos, and real results that told me losing this much weight was possible. So I hope this can be a help to someone else out there who might need information.
I’m only 3 1/2 weeks away from surgery and I’m on a “modified Atkins” diet. I’ve already lost about 20 pounds since I was at my heaviest weight when I went to the doctor to start this process in June. The surgeon wanted me to lose 10 more since I saw him last week and since then I’ve lost 8 of those pounds. It’s mostly water weight, but now I only have 2 more pounds to lose in 3 1/2 weeks. I’ve quit my beloved Diet Dr. Pepper, and am eating super healthy so I know it can be done.
Part of me wonders, why didn’t I just eat like this to begin with?
If I just eat healthy now and forever, then I won’t need the surgery. But here’s the thing, I know I can’t maintain this level of commitment without a tool to help me succeed. I need something that will help me stay on track with my diet so that I can exercise and see results and be successful and keep in it for the long haul.
I need this. And I’ve set a date. I’m definitely going to do this. And I can’t wait.
If you have any questions, feel free to ask. I’d love to share my experience with you!