I’m a little ambivalent about the surgery sometimes. But overall, the pros still outweigh the cons. No pun intended.
I’m still glad I got the surgery. And the more weight I lose, the more grateful I am.
But it’s hard sometimes.
Sometimes I’m like, “Dude, this is easy. I can kind of eat whatever I want (slowly, and in small quantities) and feel great!”
And sometimes I’m like, “Oh my gosh, I’m tired of throwing up and I feel like I’m gonna die and I hate myself for eating too much/too fast/whatever was in that that disagreed with me.”
Mostly, I do just fine.
I sip my water all day and get close to my 100 ounces, I eat slowly enough, and I don’t eat anything I’m not supposed to.
But sometimes I just forget how careful I have to be. It’s truly a learning process. I’m learning to change my habits. I can’t just throw down a meal real quick on my way out the door. I have to sit down and make 2 ounces last 20 minutes. It’s different.
I hesitate a little to share the cons.
I don’t want to sound like a complainer or to make it sound worse than it actually is. I also don’t want anyone saying, “See, I told you so, you’re going to regret it!” But you wouldn’t say that anyway, right? Plus, I want to be open and honest. I want other people who are looking into surgery, or who are just curious about the surgery, to get real, honest information about the experience.
And it doesn’t get any more real than posting my weight, so here I go with the weekly stats. Today I weighed in at 248 which is a 3 pound loss since last week, 40 since surgery and 71 overall. 71!! It doesn’t feel like I’ve lost 70 pounds. But I do recognize my face more lately. For awhile I was drowning in so much extra fat I didn’t even recognize my face anymore. But it’s coming back and I love it.
Yeah, the pros are definitely winning. Even if I don’t always digest my dinner properly.